Monday, March 23, 2009

All my der will come ter...

With Spring Break and Children of Eden over, and the summer looming on the horizon, I've decided that it's time to set some life goals. That way, come August, I can have a beer (non-alcoholic of course ;) ) and see how spectacularly I have failed.

Not that I hope to fail, but now when I work it out, it will be a nice surprise, right?

1. Figure out the school situation
I left Ball State at the end of the Fall '08 semester, for several reasons that I'll probably write about in a future post, but suffice to say I needed things to come to a halt for a spell. Still reeling, but I think this has turned out to be a good decision for me. I'm not worried about the extra time it's going to take to finish up, I just really needed to think, think, think. Admittedly, I've kept myself pretty busy to avoid doing this, so this really must happen over the summer. Should I go back? When? If not, what am I going to do instead?

Which leads me to...

2. Figure out the perfomance thing
More than one person on more than one occasion has mentioned to me that I should move to the city (New York or Chicago) and audition for things, and then decide what, if anything, I want to go back to school to do. I'm nowhere near being financially ready to do this yet on a permanent basis, but the thought is ever tempting. Even if i don't move, I know it's time to move on from community theatre. Not knocking, it's just I know I want more. Also, I want to get really serious about my songwriting and I need to start figuring out how to do at least semi-regular gigs/performance opportunities/MONEY.

Which segues quite nicely into...

3. Money. Learn how to hold on to. Enough said.

4. Guys

Not so much getting one, but making myself okay with not having one. I have learned recently that I'm not of the friendly-beneficial persuasion. In other words, to me, there is no such thing as "no strings". It doesn't exist. Exploring is fine, but let's not call it what it's not.

5. Weight
Lose it? Maintain it? This is at the bottom of the list for a reason-I'm not really concerned about it, but who doesn't want to fit into a smaller dress size? We'll see what happens. I mean, something's gotta drop if I'm chasing a 5-year-old all summer, right?

This can happen. Absolutely.


  1. If you figure 1 out of 5 of those goals, you'll be several steps ahead of me. I wish you luck, my dear.

  2. Yayyyy I found your blog! And this is one of the best things about blogs: writing down goals. I think it helps a lot to sort of "publish" them and be like, "Ok, this is what I'm going to do." Plus, then you find a built-in support system through your fellow bloggers! :)

  3. girrrl...1. i think you still havent completely explained the bs thing to me, but i think it's great that you're staying in school while you think things through. 2. you have some great ideas here! things rarely happen overnight for people so just taking a step out of comm theater is the perfect start. write a song and see if someone who performs will sing it to gauge the audience reaction without having to get up there yourself? i dunno, but it sounds liek you're doing just fine--on the right track! 3) i can teach you all about that if you continue to be my bff = ] personal finance= 1 of my passions! 4)you're being honest with yourself now which is seriously THE most important thing. revelations/enlightenment will come as time passes. 5) you look great so im glad this is at the bottom of your list! but staying in shape is important to be working on it too, ugh : (